Hi all...
Last two days I went on MC. That was the day I have to attend a meeting with the director of this institution... A senior colleague of mine handled the meeting and she said it went well despite some glitches...
1. The people who suppose to table financial report didn't turn up
2. I didn't write a memo to all the member's about the meeting
3. I sent an e-mail about the meeting in the evening of Friday
4. The director didn't turn up because of the non-existence of the memo
All my fault... But frankly speaking, all last week was a disaster in my career... People demand so many things from me... reports, class notes, meetings, site visits.. aaaggggrrrhhhhh!!! To me, these things are meaningless... I transfer here just to steer myself AWAY from these things!!!... The work for class and department, I can handle, but work with the superior is something I HATE...
You want to know why? Because they are big babies that need to be pampered and cherished all the time, they load you up with all sorts of rubbish today and expect you to turn them in the next day, wrongly evaluate your work, disearn your effort, break your heart... never feel appreciated... hhhhmmmm....
Well, so I just own my mistakes and I promised not to do them again... insya Allah... but the nature of a superior seems to me never change since the last place I work... The superior gave me bad evaluation after all the work I've done, broke my heart and stumped on it...
I'm moving on with life with the awareness of human makes mistake and not all human are perfect, including me... I forgive them.... I forgive myself... I pray to Allah to grant us prosperity here and 'there'... amin...
P/s... just blowing some steam off....
