The Truth or Lie

Salam... Hi all....

Final exam has end and all the results are posted on the internet. Including my students... But guess what... I failed a student because he got 58% on his/her continuous evaluation and 18% on his final exam. 68+18/2 = 43%... Can't do more to help him/her to pass...

Oddly, he/she manage to do his/her quizzes and assignments... He/she failed his test... My colleagues said, if the students are part time students, we should pass them because they pay a lot for each subject... But what if they are really really weak? Should I pass them as well... People will question my integrity as a lecturer and the quality of my assessment... isk isk isk...

Turns out, the student I failed is a brother/sister of a colleague... and now he/she's not talking to me... I don't take this seriously because Im just doing my job.. By the way, I cought him/her cheating on his/her quizzes but I still give him/her chances to rectify his/her mistakes... Am I that bad?

I also gave these students an extra assignment to help them with the continuous evaluation, be he/she chose to turn it in the day after I process the marks and turn it in to the head of department... isk isk... Nottttt....

Just a Waste of Time...

Salam and hi all...

Well, as some of you know now is crunch time, we have to finish marking exam papers, update the teaching file and post students' marks on the post boards...

Then suddenly, we, the selected few have to finish and prepare for a Creative and Innovative Group presentation for the royal highnest. Ironically, the royal highnest can't have our audience because he has to attend another meeting with the officers for faaaarrrr morrreeeeee important business....

Marking exam papers and updating teaching are merely a small business and our time is not that vital?????? We spent and yet a week for the stupid thing and nothing!!!!....

UUurrrrggghhhh!!!!!

I'm going to say ta ta and are voir to this institution to further my studies for four years and I wish, as I return to this place, the reign will change and the royal will be more thoughtful and mindful of his/her subjects....

Making it Real... Making it True...

Salam and good day...

Well, it has been quite a while... Lots have went on in my life... Fuhhhh!!!... I went for an interview last month and I got the scholarship!!! he he he... Alhamdulillah.... It became a predicament for my colleagues because they said I helped them a lot and not having me next year would be a lost... Well, I don't really think so highly of my abilities because there are others who are creative, innovative and hardworking, but they are not that flamboyant as me... he he he... They work to the max and take no credit for their work. They just need to be discovered that's all....

I can't achieve perfecness without these people... I plan, I manage, I run, but working with the right people in my team helps me get things done... AKA, I can't do without them... Maybe Im a risk taker and I don't really take critics into my heart... I do blab about it among friends; I do need to vent my frustations, I am human ya'll...

So, in short, I think I should expose these people to the right crowd so that they will get discovered and appreciated... I know, I know,... I am flashy... I tell people about what I do because apparently, to be appreciated here, I need to do so... thus, obtain great appraisals at the end of the year ( hu hu hu uhuk... not monetary, but great evaluation by the top bosses)...

They need to be appreciated as well, they worked hard for it but too shy to brag about it... No no no... the work shy in this department will put you behind... waaa...!!!

PhD... here I come... already got my supervisor, already set my heart on Universiti Sains Malaysia, Pulau Pinang, got referees among friends... Praying hard that I'll get in next year... amiiinnnnnnn.... I plan to finish my studies within three years... Wishful thinking that I really want to come true... making it real... making it true...

Good nite... until later...

Article in Sinarharian.com.my

Hi all...

My article is posted in http://www.sinarharian.com.my/ online newspaper.

The title is CUKUPKAH HANYA DENGAN KATA-KATA MANIS?

It is about multi level marketing.

Go to the site, and click on Suara Anda then, click on Rencana Komuniti.

Maybe you'll get something out of it.

Bubur Lambok.... The Cooking Competition

Yes... bubur lambok is a traditional dish that most people make during Ramadhan al Mubarak... Rice congee cooked and mixed with spices, prawns, meat or chicken... nyum nyum.. yummy...

But why cook it during Ramadhan? Who would judge it right away? People are fasting..Who is going to taste it? Hellooooo... Aaahhh yes.. because it is bubur lambok, a dish that is only cooked during Ramadhan... I see...

Yes... there are women who can't fast during this holy month and they can taste it, but do we need to expose her just because she can drink and eat during the day, unlike others who have to fast until dusk... It is still a stigma, eventhough it is known that women "on leave" from prayers every month can't fast during that time, but eating openly in front of fasting people is considered rude...

Yes... this competition is during office hours, class hours and yes the participants are mostly lecturers who have class today... Canceled the classes to join this competition and left the students browsing the campus as they pleased. They knew about this competition, but why they didn't bother to swap their teaching periods with other lecturers (who were not involved with the competition) so that the time can be used efficiently during the morning time. Everybody knows that teenagers study better in the morning, while their brains' are still fresh...

So... What is the outcome of the competition? What were the objectives of it? Does it benefit the students? Does it help the lecturer to improve their teaching abilities?

Yes... people may say that I'm being negative and anti social, but, please, I'm just thinking on this side.. the student's side... The time that was suppose to allocated for them was "bruised" by these kinds of "Social Affairs"... Is there no other time for it? Appropriate time? The weekends perhaps? Masya Allah... Laahaulawala...

A bit Frustrated...

Hi all... I'm a bit frustrated because every semester we change subjects that we teach and complementing duties.... These are the duties which I call "*T*^(**&*&%(*%*" duties which take away my preperation time to write modules, class notes, update and grade student's quizes, test and exams... ggrrrr....

In addition to this anxiety, when the previous people pass the duty to a new victim, they always forget to prepare a list of what has been done, what's still in progress and what the future plans, job scope, extend of the duties and to whom I report to... Hey Mr. Stingy! Make everybody prepare this list so the new VICTIMs can do their jobs better... So that we don't waste our time FIGURING it ALL OVER AGAIN!!! So time wasting!

I'm so exausted of all this nonsence. The work is not efficient, the time management is haywire, the quality of the students goes down the DRAIN...

Scolded...

Hi all...

Last two days I went on MC. That was the day I have to attend a meeting with the director of this institution... A senior colleague of mine handled the meeting and she said it went well despite some glitches...

1. The people who suppose to table financial report didn't turn up

2. I didn't write a memo to all the member's about the meeting

3. I sent an e-mail about the meeting in the evening of Friday

4. The director didn't turn up because of the non-existence of the memo

All my fault... But frankly speaking, all last week was a disaster in my career... People demand so many things from me... reports, class notes, meetings, site visits.. aaaggggrrrhhhhh!!! To me, these things are meaningless... I transfer here just to steer myself AWAY from these things!!!... The work for class and department, I can handle, but work with the superior is something I HATE...

You want to know why? Because they are big babies that need to be pampered and cherished all the time, they load you up with all sorts of rubbish today and expect you to turn them in the next day, wrongly evaluate your work, disearn your effort, break your heart... never feel appreciated... hhhhmmmm....

Well, so I just own my mistakes and I promised not to do them again... insya Allah... but the nature of a superior seems to me never change since the last place I work... The superior gave me bad evaluation after all the work I've done, broke my heart and stumped on it...

I'm moving on with life with the awareness of human makes mistake and not all human are perfect, including me... I forgive them.... I forgive myself... I pray to Allah to grant us prosperity here and 'there'... amin...

P/s... just blowing some steam off....